Being anxious and anticipating big changes in my life causes me to have some really strange and disturbing dreams. Last night's was not specifically threatening and frightening. At first. I don't remember all of it very well, just snippets. Watching the neighbor across the street bully his kids because he can't find his cigarettes and a dragon (a horse sized red, golden eyed dragon) swoops down out of the sky and just takes his head off in one neat chomp. I blink, and then turn calmly around and get in my car. I go to a bakery and pick up a loaf of artisan bread, as I'm paying for it I tell people about the dragon and to look out for it. They all nod and thank me for the heads up. One man promises not to yell at his kids out doors, to ease my mind. In the second part I am in a narrow hallway hung with red curtains, and the hall way is filled with 90o angles so you;re always going around a corner. I have a sword, and I am calling out that I never believed that I would be made to do this, to make these kinds of decisions. The hallway being as it is I can't see more than 10 feet in from of me and the sword brushes metallicly against the walls, slicing throiugh the sheer red curtains with ease. Sometimes behind the curtains are black marble blocks with red letters set into the wall, but since you can't read in dreams I have no idea what they said. The meaning wasn't clear. I come around a corner and there is a man sitting on a bench carved into the wall. His eyes are completely black and he smiles very toothilly at me. I feel my heart go up into my throat. His hair is black and he is resting his elbows on his knees. He greets me, and speaks quietly but antagonisticly. He tells me if I pass him and leave him on the bench he will follow me and kill me, that my only choice is to stop there and become a vampire with him. I shake my head, and he laughs and says "Come on, come drink with me." And then I cut his head off, but it won't seperate from his body, so I begin frantically slicing into his head itself. The top slides off in neat sections like you see in MRIs, and while the bottom of his nose and mouth remain he keeps talking "What is it, day four? Come and drink with me, you'll get no better offer". Finally I manage to silence him, and shudder looking at the neatly vivisected brain, skull, and eyeballs spread around his feet. I couldn't keep walking anyway, I woke up, my heart beating hard, not fast. Because I couldn't go to sleep right away after that I decided to do a little dream dictionary surfing. I know dreams are a subconcious process and have meanings specific to the individual, but sometimes a refrence point helps. Here's what I found:
Dragons
To see a dragon in your dream, signifies that you let yourself get carried away by your passion. This kind of behavior may lead you into the hands of enemies. You need to exercise some self-control.
Bakery
To see a bakery in your dream, signifies richness and success. Your future will be an enjoyable, pleasant and filled with satisfaction.
Bread
To see bread in your dream, represents the basic needs of life. Bread may signify the positive qualities and great things you have learned on your journey of life. Alternatively, it suggests that you need to rise above the situation or rise for the occasion.
Hallways
To see a hallway in your dream, symbolizes self exploration and the beginning of a path that you are taking in life. You are going through a transitional phase in your life and journeying into the unknown. It signals spiritual enlightenment, emotional growth physical prowess, new opportunities and mental passages in your life.
Sword
To dream that you are wielding a sword, represents your ambition, competitive nature decisiveness and will power. You seek to hold a position of prestige, authority, and distinction. Alternatively, the sword can be seen as a phallic symbol and thus represent masculine power.
Curtain
To dream that you are shutting the curtains, signifies secrecy and a repression of thoughts. You are concealing a personal matter or an aspect of yourself. On the other hand, to dream that you are opening the curtains, indicates that you are ready to reveal something hidden.
Stranger
To see a stranger in your dream, symbolizes the part of yourself that is repressed and hidden.
Vampire
To see a vampire in your dream, symbolizes seduction and sensuality, as well as fear and death. The vampire represents contrasting images of civilized nobility and aggression/ferocity. It may depict someone in your waking life whose charm may ultimately prove harmful. Deep down inside you know that this person is bad for you, yet you are still drawn to it. Vampires also sometimes relate to decisions about sex and losing your virginity. Alternatively, to see a vampire suggests that you are feeling physically or emotionally drained. The vampire may also be symbolic for someone who is addicted to drugs or someone in an obsessive relationship.
Attack
To dream that you attack someone, represents some pent-up frustration and anger. You feel that you have been wronged. You feel that it is easier and safer for you to express your anger in your dream.
Brain
To dream of your brain, suggests that you are under severe intellectual stress. It may also symbolize your problem-solving abilities and that you need to put those abilities to use. Alternatively, it may imply that your ideas are not receiving enough attention and validation. You are concerned that your knowledge and teachings are not be transmitted clearly.
So, what does that mean? Still sorting it out. I went back to bed and slept soundly until my alarm this morning. Mostly I think it has to do with facing challenges and making the right decision in the face of fear. My life is full of uncertainty, stress and fear as I try to find a job, await a change in my living situation and suffer a sense of great distance between myself and my closest friends and family. Perhaps the stranger was asking me to give up and just leech off the system, who knows. I know I certainly wouldn't cut someone's head off in real life. What the dragon was I can't say either. Just GIGO I guess.
Post a Comment